April 9th

In class we spoke about " The House of the Future" where cooper speaks of all the opportunities that layed in the future as a reader it made me excited and drove my imagination insane. At the same time it made me feel like I needed to appreciate the smaller things in life more like the people and things that are currently in my life. I've always tried to live in the moment and see the positive sides of everything. Also I've tried to forgive as much as I possibly can because my very last memory with my grandmother wasn't as good as it could have been. I remember it was my birthday I had planned to spend it with my fiance and cousins who lived all the way in Detroit. My birthday was awful my fiance ended up blowing me off for a really silly reason and my cousins had to go home early. Then when we went to visit my grandmother at the end of the day we found her apartment a wreck and she was very stubborn about not allowing us to help her clean. My mom maid my siblings and I sit while she spent 3 hours cleaning. On top of not getting to do all that I wanted for my birthday I blamed my grandma for my lack of sleep that day and I was a bit rude to her about it. I know she didn't hold it against me but I never got to apologize for that night.

Cooper speaks of his brother dying from a disease she hasn't told us much about. He speaks often of not so great memories he had while his brother while he was sick. I felt as if he didn't recall enough about his brother while he was well. From the way he beats around the bush of telling us about his relationship with his brother I feel as if they had a pretty good relationship. He spoke about his fear of not being able to remember his brother and I think he means remember the good things about his brother. I know for me I have a difficulty not remember my grandmother she's just in everything I do.

I especially liked this line "It could be said that hardly a natural material occurs in it's original state anywhere in your new home!"  Its kind of saying that the future in uncontrollable and that no one's ever ready for the changes it holds. I recall cooper say how he'd come home everyday wondering if his brother was still alive or not. Though the death of his brother was expected I felt as if cooper was still waiting for a miracle of some kind to  keep his brother alive. The optimism of children saddens me sometimes because they don't really believe bad things can happen until they actually happen.